here is my journaling for today.

sigh. i've been getting to bed really late lately. but, tonight, i plan on getting to bed much earlier! before midnight is what i'm shooting for.

i wanted to make sure the clinics were taken care of as i won't be attending the mercy seat tomorrow. however, i couldn't get a hold of mike, so I will pray here. busy weekend ahead with the seafood dinner and silent auction. i also get to sing at the mission which is very exciting!

YOU are my joy. i do like that song, because it's true. Jesus is my joy. reminds me of when nate gave his presentation in speech and debate. or was that another class? Reading the Word of God gets you so pumped! I haven't felt as weak lately which is a great feeling! i can relate to feather aka heather. i can't begin to imagine what she is going through actually loosing a sister, but my pain is similiar. i lost my sister in christ. still cant seem to wrap my finger around it, cus' it just shouldn't have happened. but, i have peace. i've felt a knot inside my stomach and sudden fear, but i know God is not a God of fear or anxiety. so, i give it to God. I rest and stand in knowing Jesus.

but of course, i can never dwell too long on this particular subject or i'll begin to cry again or get discouraged. there will be time and years to rehash this. it'll go away but never fully.

I spend entirely too much on food. and it must stop.

it's drawing near to ten o' clock which means i need to go to bed. i've got to go wedding dress (no, i'm not getting married) tomorrow with anna for matt dussia's wedding, then i've got to babysit for an hour, make monkey bread, finish my petty little english assingment, rest (hopefully) then go to bible study.

I find HOPE in Jesus Christ. :)