How happy I am for my life. Literally, the LIFE living within me---the Sustainer of my life, He who makes me to enjoy life, He who heals my body when I am sick so I can again enjoy life and feel alive : ]
Being dog sick with a fever for 5 days this past week has really made me thankful for being well. Really made me stop to think--"Thank you Lord for sustaining me when I'm keeping myself going and running like a chicken with it's head cut off." Made me to realize that I really need to slow down and be still. That I don't need to keep talking about it, making lists that say I'll do it one of these days, or have it be some distant goal, but I need to make this time of rest a LIFESTYLE. For the current pace is wearing me out!
On another note, I was thinking about the various thoughts Amy Crane would have been thinking about when she committed suicide. I was also thinking about how desperate I would have to become to actually go through with such a thing. How decieved, how strung out, how hopeless, insecure, trapped, void of all hope. I thought of her while I was sick. How many people who were affected by the way of her death really think they will find themselves in the same shoe? It baffels me. It baffels me about how twisted her thinking really was. I find myself thinking of her when I read certain scripture verses that she probably took the wrong way. I think about one of the last times with her when she was so desperately in love with the Lord. I really think she wanted to see Him NOW, rather than waiting for her appointed time to see Him. Enough said. These among many other questions will be left un-answered for the time being, and maybe for eternity. This case rests in the palm of my sweet Father's hand the author and finisher of my life--who has given me such peace, who has drawn me so close, and has given me His assurance.
On a completely different thread, I'm looking forward to making more dish clothes for friends and family. I also can't wait to hear what my friend say's when she recieves the package of Small Meadow Press notecards I ordered her. I really love this delightful little store! However, my piles of wonderful things need to be put to use very soon. It's awful. I usually like them so much I don't want to use them. Or, I'm not creative enough and can't figure out what to do with them. Which was the case with the notecards--I just had to order my friend a whole set for herself. I am looking forward to completing some new projects this year which will include lots of collage.
May the peace of God which surpasses all understanding guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.
I need to continue to rest as I'm not fully well and have a long day of studying ahead. Mmm. I look forward to the day when I am not a pressured learner. :0
