Confirmation

Water began to stream down my face in an instant as confirmation hit my heart. 

If you don't quit, you win. Stay steady, constant. Don't be so introspective, but press for several years.  Being a forerunner isn't something you do for a season. It's a lifelong calling. "Many go hard after fasting and prayer for a season but loose vision and grow weary in the well doing and give up."   The reality of this truth hit my heart today. 

The Lord has called me to the ministry of day and night prayer and he called me 5 years ago.  I've been doing this for 3 years but haven't put my entire being into it. I've had one foot in the water but have waffled back and forth thinking that their was more to it (and more will come from it but I must give fully to it). I've viewed it as a season , a time of life, rather than a calling.  Wow. This brings such clarity and hope to my heart.  If the Lord has brought me to this place, to this house, the question shouldn't be should I stay, it should be should I go? 

And so, I'm ready to dive in fully, whatever that looks like, here or there. 

The consecration of a Nazirite: 

Laying down legitimate pleasure unto encountering real fulfillment.
Having an outward sign of consecration (such as long hair).
Living for the eternal, not holding on to this world.