Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Sweet and Short

Well, since I've been online this evening far longer than I anticipated (hmmm...this seems to happen quite frequently actually)...I'll give you the short version of the semi-long version update.

I've been up a total of 15 hours now.
Got up at 6:45 am this morning, talked to mom about my weird dream (yes, the dream including marrying people who were already married, thinking i was supposed to marry someone else, and various other weird things), got a quick bite to eat (cranberry sauce and ezekiel bread english muffin! delicious!) then headed to VWW (the first abortion clinic of the day)
was at VWW 7:30-9:00am,
stopped in at the lovely Wawa (great coffee for really cheap! and they even have string cheese!! ) ,
traveled to the second abortion clinic, Ingleside, stayed from 10-12pm. We think a baby was saved! Yes! I talked with a couple who were really interested in what I had to say (walkers) and they went in then came immediately back out. Awesome praise the Lord! Emily and I talked about wanting to memorize Psalm 119. Looking forward to that. Thankfully, on my way to Ingleside, I didn't run any read lights this time, yes, I ran a red light and didn't really know till I was halfway though the intersection. On Virginia Beach Blvd mind you.
after this clinic, I went to the lovely Miss Teagle's home where we had our staff lunch of delightful grilled sandwiches (and kiwi), we prayed, and talked, and bundled up again for the last and final clinic of the day, Hillcrest! (over the hill we went!...har har)
Hillcrest lasted from 1:30-3:30, prayed, had some great conversation with Mike (as usual), some other interesting converstion which is not worth noting, got a little emotional over disturbing signs from someone who comes out to protest with us....good to be reminded of it though, you can get so "hard" and used to it.
and then, i went home. got online for a little while, ate a great hamburger made by my mom and corn salad, updated mom on the day's events, got ready for the evening with the girls...
we went to panera, was able to take melody c. with me which was nice, we got to talk in the car about good things, good fellowship with everyone, productive conversation.
this is becoming the long version and so i will say goodnight.

Blessings and peace ~elaine

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

so later tonight turned into two more days

Oh posh, updates.

Today was my first day of classes. I'm taking Principles of Microeconomics this semester with the same teacher I had last semester because I really enjoyed her teaching style and learned alot. Unfortunantly, she warns us that Micro is not the same as Macro, so......I left the class feeling fairly good about it, not really looking forward to the graph section, but am very up to pressing through and learning something difficult. For some reason, everyone I talk to feels sorry that I'm taking it. I really enjoyed most of the class last semester---for various reasons I guess. 1) she was the only teacher that semester I could really understand, follow, and learn from, 2) i was able to understand a little more about the economic state, 3) still learning that i need to start reading, watching, or listening to some sort of news ( i didn't last semester, still gained a lot just by the class, but i should probably start consistently reading certain section of the news to keep informed) I dropped the online class I had originally been fairly excited about--Survey of 20th Century culture--mainly because I've really been stirred to do more in the home (keep reading, i'll go into depth on this), 2) it looked really extensive--i love challenges but seeing that my schedule is so vexed (is that the right word) and stretched in a lot of ways, it was going to be a lot of work, and online classes can be confusing--it was vague, and noting the caliber of students from their introductions it would have been very similiar to English 111 and 112 (not very challenging, me helping everyone--which i enjoyed--but me really not learning from everyone else) and so. I dropped it! Yeah for making that decision. I believe i'll be very satisfied in the long run.

To update many of you on what I'm currently doing this semester:
~taking the one class tuesday and thursdays
~watching nadia and deema tuesday evenings--this has been a great experience! in the beginning, i had the priveledge of depositing into the life of their 13 year old foster child, i thank the Lord that she was put in my life for a short time which helped me grow and made me feel like i really did make a difference in her life.
~cleaning for an elderly couple on Friday afternoons--this also has been a great ministry (even though I do get paid) I've kind of been "adopted" in their eyes as the daughter claudia never had, they take me out to eat, want me to stay and have dinner or snack before i leave....and i've also been a sounding board and a true comfort ( i feel) to a lonely soul and have been able to minister through prayer and just caring enough to listen. it's been great!

So, I've talked to a lot of you about the movie I watched (Return of the Daughters) and the book I'm slowly (but surely, and plan to finish it, and re-read it) reading entitled "So Much More"-- both sources by Anna Sofia and Elizabeth Botkin. It was a few semesters back after watching the movie that I was just so stirred to jump very much on board with the biblical plan they were living out. However, I kind of put it off--set it on the back burner-- and figured I'd finish my associate degree and then begin to put into action these things I had been so stirred to do. In doing so, I became very busy, somewhat stressed, still had some peace in most areas, but specifically in one area (that of my education) wasn't settled about where to go for the next two years of my schooling. Well, my friend who is also reading this book e-mailed me with a few questions she had about a particular section they addressed in the book about college. I read over it, not extensively, but in this question/answer format came across a few questions that made me re-evaluate why I was doing what I was doing. Yes, I have goals like being fluent in Spanish, goals of teaching Worldview and or English, but the re-occuring goal or desire always went back to this Return of the Daughter stuff I'd been presented with---ultimatly to get this information into the hands of every young woman I met, to assure them that they have a purpose and are worth so much, that they can be content without competing in this world, doing the things God created in each of us as women to do. But, honestly, I had gone into last semester ( i believe it was then), wanting to be able to minister to the people, be a light in the darkness, really i had gotten to the place where i didn't care how long (well, at times i guess i cared a little) it took me to complete the two years for my associate degree, maybe for a few reasons one of the biggest being that i really wasn't sure where I wanted to go to finish my bachelor and i just didn't want to finish at this level till i really knew ! haha, drawing it out till it couldn't be drawn out anymore. another reason being that I really wanted to be more prepared spiritually--i was getting so busy, this just wasn't happening getting in the Word everyday, praying, seeing exactly what the Lord wanted to me to say and do while on the campus. Just the whole thing about getting so busy, I wasn't able to really do the important things like cleaning my bathroom and doing the dishes. SO, there were a few things that popped out to me as I skimmed this section on college in the book---the word minister and the word christian college. One of my "excuses" which might not be an excuse, because i really do feel it was my heart to minister on the college campus, but rather more of a reason to not put into full action--really to put off till i though it was time-- to do what the Lord has stirred in me. Am I really called to be a beacon of light on the college campus when I'm not able to fully devote my entire being to seeking God, which will thus prepare me for ministry? And is it really where He wants me to be? Am I the one called to minister there? So, the whole Christian college thing really made me evaluate the choice and uncertainty I was feeling about where to go after community college. Regent University was the main college I was considering, I even took one class there and loved it know a lot of people there, etc, but still just didn't have a peace about it. So, I came away thinking that maybe the Lord doesn't want me to go to Regent or any other 4 year universtity, which is why their wasn't peace.

I want to go into this next semester with some very strong goals for my education, the purpose i have as a daughter and sister in the home, and most importantly my spiritual walk with the Lord. It won't be perfect, but my heart is to really know the will of God and walk in it, and I've felt so stirred about these things that are so biblical, why not start there! I want to begin to carve out time to reflect, time to read and engage in stimulating education and learning from my home, be able to help mend what has been broken, and impart what I'm learning to others!

Essentially, I feel like this is a time to set right and put into action what has been put off far too long. Does this mean I won't be involved in society? Absolutely not! There are times where we have to really get back to what's important, re-evaluate why we are doing what we are doing, look at life from the lens of the Word of God, sit back and observe what God has done, not assume anything....I'm ready to pursue righteousness and want to be used by the Lord wherever He sees fit to use me, starting in the home!

Some goals:
~ One of my main goals is to start getting into a very serious study of the Word
~Begin to pray, being very specific in my requests, and also engaging in corporate prayer with others.
~Begin reading various different books (that will help me grow spiritually, mentally) that have been put on hold as I've tried to pursue an associate degree. Not like these books couldn't have been read then, but I just got so busy, it didn't happen, and really, I found myself (probably like a lot of people) not able to do those simple things that I knew I was supposed to do, like cleaning the toilet! It just didn't get done because I didn't make it a priority and found myself occupied with things that would fulfill what I wanted and or thought I needed at the time. posh!
~Start at some time a discussion group for young women, a place where we can talk about the Biblical commands and duties we have as women, how we can relate to our culture, what we can do to change things, etc. The backbone to this group would be pure Scripture and the resources provided by the Botkin sisters (which have been so revolutionary in my life!).

Since I've been typing about 45 minutes, I think I'll take a break. For those of you who read all of this: Bravo! Thank you for reading!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

to catch up

Well, that picture maybe isn't the best to put up there but it will do for now. :0

There is so much to talk about and so little time! I plan on keeping up with this--as it's a great way to express in the written word how I am feeling, process what I'm doing, and keep everyone up to date. So, I hope that actually happens. :/

I'll update later tonight.....

so stay tuned

Friday, December 26, 2008

Short and Sweet

Since the hour is drawing near and I really need to get some sleep....

I'll just give you a brief update.

Katie Paulus is moving away--a dear co-worker at the bookstore. We spend so many great hours together, on the road, on the phones, on the computer.....I thank her for inviting me to her wedding and for being a reflection of God's gentleness.

I'm turning 20 tomorrow! Gasp!? My plans are to be on the front lines at abortion clincs for about 4 hours, have a nice lunch with a friend, and rest! I enjoyed a great time of laughter with some of my sweet friends this evening by taking me to the Cheesecake factory and the holiday lights at the beach.

I had an amazing time in Illinois and can't wait to return again next winter. I felt the joy of being such an impact in another person's life, was able to relax (despite the fact that we never went to be before 12am)....

My brother Mason is a senior this year. Scary. Pray that he knows the God of this universe cares about him SO MUCH and that he has a purpose and a calling in Christ.

I started writing a Christmas letter (our family has never completed or sent one and I wanted to do that this year..) We will see what happens.

If you read this, please post so I know to keep up with you.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

The Life in Illinois

My Christmas break is being spent in the lovely town of Champaign-Urbana in Illinois. There have been a lot of different things I have gleaned from coming.

the break away from the everyday pace of work, friends, school, life, my room, my car, has been SO refreshing.

i want to live in a place with snow.

your life can be fast paced if you make it that way, if you believe it is, and if you don't make time to be still and quiet in an environment that is.

every city, every state, has people that need the love of Christ. people that need to be stirred from their sleep.

death comes when we don't want it to, but we must accept that and not treat death as something that is there to take away the joy we have but it is there to remind us of the hope we have in Christ. remember that their is a time to live and a time to die. What a great time to grow even closer to the Father who is the giver of life? Who knows the day of of our departure from this earth!

goodbyes are hard, not as bad as death, and leave a sting that makes both parties anticipate the next meeting. thankfully, they only last a little while. i hope this goodbye will make me pray.

sking was a blast! i fell so many times. but, i felt the wind upon my face and the snow blow in my eyes, and a gentleman helped me up and taught me, so very patiently, how to ski.

and a few quotes from my Illinois/Virginia Playlist:
"you'll be the prince and I'll be the princess"
"i can smell the death on the sheets, covering me, i can't believe, this is the end."
"i hear jerusalem bells are ringing..be my mirror my soul my shield, that was when i ruled the world"
"i just need this old train to breakdown"
"banana pancakes"

to be continued......

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Oh me, oh my! Has it been that long!?

Pardon my lack in writing, does anyone read this anyway? It's a good place to write even if no one is reading it.

-I'm trying to figure out the KLOVE music pattern. Should I be hearing the same song twice in one day? Wait, should I be hearing multiple songs twice in the same day? Better yet, should I be singing a song and then turn the radio on to find that song playing (for the third time?)

-Ok, I'm not sure why I've started to listen to KLOVE again, because it really bugs me that they repeat their songs, BUT, during my listening sessions on one of my many trips in the car I discovered the following about a few churches and their interesting practices:
A. A certain church here in the U.S allows cell phones to be used as a way of "ministering" to the congregation. Yes, cell phones are used during the sermon! More specifically, twitter is used and messages are displayed on the projector for all to see. What? Interesting.
B. A lady pastor (thoughts on women pastors anyone?-- personally i don't believe there should be women pastors) initiated an evening service where dog owners can allow their pets to worship with them during service! Yeah, the thought came to her as she was reading a passage from Scripture that said something about letting all of creation worship God (Psalm 90?). It happened that as she was reading her dog was lying at her feet. Ok, this is just weird.

Who knows what you'll hear on KLOVE.

My back is REALLY hurting, and my legs might experience charlies this evening. Too much Israili dancin' this past Saturday my calfs hurt so bad! Off to do a little planning before I go to sleep.

Are you living to suffer and die? Are you DENYING, TAKING UP YOUR CROSS, and FOLLOWING Christ, everyday?

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

happenings

i like this color, it's the color of my new purse, which is a pretty cool.

why don't I update this thing more often? maybe I need to get it more publicized then i would be more motivated to actually update it oftener (yes, i just made up the word).

i just returned from Nicaragua. I love that I can write quicker than I can write personal letters. I love getting personal letters, but writing lots of them (ok, i'm working on writing thank you's which encompasses lots of handwritten personal detailed letters) can be a little tedious and time consuming. in the end it shows that I really cared and appriciated the person, right?

Though this trip was filled with LOTS of travel--from Virginia we traveled to Washington, really ruffed it in a Best Western at the Pentagon, flew out of D.C to Florida where we waited for 4 hours, then flew from Florida to Managua. Our traveling didn't stop there. Once in Managua we traveled about 30 minutes to our hotel where we would meet up with our Tico (those from Costa Rica) friends for the evening. In the morning, we traveled a good hour to the port where we then boarded the Ferry that would take another hour till we reached the island, more traveling then, about an hour--did we think our traveling was done yet? Well we thought so, at least for the time that it took us to swim in the lake (that felt like bathwater)--we had ministry that evening at a church another hour from the hotel. :) Yeah for travel! ----and so, though it was filled with lots of travel, there was a lot of time for downtime and rest, time to really "Be still and know that I am God".

Ministry for me as one of the girls consisted of VBS in the mornings for 4 days, rest in the afternoon, and ministry using dance and puppets in the evening. The next four days, we stayed at a lovely Orphanage positioned again right on the water. Great times at the pavilion sitting in a hammock. Delightful. Here, we had VBS in the morning at the orphanage and VBS at a church about 20 minutes away in the afternoon. We continued with ministry as a group (with the Tico's) in the evenings to various different churches.

I know that seeds were planted on this trip and I'm sure we were such a blessing and and encouragement to Alan and Susan Killingsworth. It was really a nice trip.

In other news, I continue to work through the summer--Tuesday-Friday at the bookstore. I'm also geering up for another semester of school that starts August 21st.

I need to beging organizing and planning for me next week (and weeks to to come!) So many people to see, lots of things to complete and do...

Finding the pleasure and Joy in serving my King!

-Elaine